Pataa nahee kyon saare bharaav ke baavajood kuchh khaalee-khaalee-saa hameshaa saath hee rahaa mere. Jo tamaam koshxishxon ke baad bhee khan-khan karane se baaza nahee aataa hai. Is khaaleepan kee aavaaza se betarahaa khaauf aataa rahaa hai mujhe. Usase paar paane ke liye main usase hee baaten karane lagatee hoon. Shaayad use palaṭakar ḍaaraane ke lihaaza se yaa shaayad apane ḍaar se pinḍa chhudaane kee baabat, aur yaheen main apanee kamajor nas use thamaa detee hoon. Vo mere andar chhupe baiṭhe akelepan ko daboch letaa hai, baahar kee bheed-bhaad kaa faayadaa uṭhaakar. Vo had darzaa baatoonee ki... Usakaa jee hee nahee bharataa baaton se. Ka_ii-ka_ii tareekon se mujhase lagaataar snvaad karataa rahataa hai. Chup hone kaa naam hee letaa. Aisaa phaitooree!! Usakaa man rakhate-rakhate main jo bhee kahatee chalee ga_ii, vo kahaa bhar naheen rah gayaa ek vakt ke baad. Main use hee jeene lagee. Mujhe is kahane-sunane men ek nashaa-saa aane lagaa, jise main ghoonṭ-ghoonṭ peene lagee. Yah nashaa aisaa taaree huaa ki ab main baarambaar us suroor kaa jashn manaane apane us saathee khaaleepan ke saath jaa baiṭhatee hoon. Lekin ab usake saath dene kee ek shart hotee hai ki jitanee bhee der main usake saath hooongee us dauraan jo bhee baaten hongee vo saath-saath main pannon par utaaratee jaa_oongee. Usakaa saath paane kaa junoon is kadar mere sir par savaar huaa ki main deevaanee-see sab maanatee chalee ga_ii. Vo haavee hotaa gayaa mujh par main halkee hotee ga_ii us par. Hamaaree mahaphail aksar jamatee rahee. Meraa reetaapan belaag, bekhaupha, pooree bebaakee se badastoor unmaad kee tarah baahar aakar apanaa rng dikhaataa rahaa. Andar kaa sab achchhaa-buraa is kitaab ke pannon par jyon kaa tyon chhitar gayaa hai. Geet-gazal-kavitaa, naa jaane ye kyaa hai... Jaane bhee deejiye! Kyoonki main kavi naheen, kyoonki main hosh men naheen... Mujhe maapha keejiye!! Kuchh jaam chhalakaa_en hain, tanhaa_ii kee suraahee se... Unakaa mazaa leejiye!

"is paar main"

us paar jaane kyaa hogaa...

Please note: This audiobook is in Hindi.